
Hello, I am Sami and welcome to my blog. For a few weeks now, I have been feeling some really big "growth spurts" inside of me. I am 30 something wife, mom/stepmom who has always put her children first. As of this year one of our sons will become an adult, two of our children will become teens and one will become a preteen. While I will continue to make my children a priority I must put my husband and our marriage first. I will also focus on bringing the woman within me out. I look forward to this new chapter in my life in order to watch our children grow into responsible adults, to love and cherish my husband and to be the beautiful, confident woman God created. Please join me in my journey and always feel free to comment, offer advise, or just say hello!
Hi Sami .. good to be back from Africa and love your site

The weekend seemed incredibly long because we were "iced" in. We are usually very active people so to have to stay in all weekend was driving me crazy. I do have to say that our road crews were incredible and when we finally ventured out last night around 7:30PM I was amazed at how well the roads had been treated and were completely safe to drive on. Unfortunately for them an even bigger ice storm is headed our way tonight. More than likely schools will be called off tomorrow in which I won't even try to drive into work.
The party at my Vice Presidents house on Friday evening was pretty nice. My VP lives in one of the top notch housing communities in the area so it is always fun to drive through the neighborhood and only wish we could have a home so huge. We mainly hung out with one of my co-workers and his wife and their baby. I love their daughter...she is as cute as can be. We have spent alot of time with this same couple outside of work in the past. They are good people but they do not believe in God. I don't let this stray me from hanging out with them but look at it as an opportunity to show them what God can do for them in their lives through my own life. In fact my co-worker has recently been interviewing for a job outside of our company. Many times when we has updated me on the situation I always tell him I will keep him in prayer. It is the little things that plant the seeds. This morning he told me that the company contacted him over the weekend and will be giving him a formal offer this week. When he gets that offer I will say something to him like "Praise God" or "God has answered yet another prayer." I will keep plugging away at him. However, there are many times he scares me to death by the things he says. He has told me he would take the mark of the beast and has also said he wants to get a gun to ensure he has a way of defending his family in case the rapture comes. But I know God can get through to those that think on the lines of the way my friend does and I am happy to do whatever He wants me to do in order to get this family saved.
While I am on faith I have to share a touching story. As I had posted last week or so I had gone in for my yearly OB appointment. I had not had an exam since giving birth to Hylari. I don't remember why I didn't go the first year after I had her but the second year was when I was going through my divorce from Hylari's dad and I just let go from that point. I then began having fears that since I had not gone for so long what the results might produce and I didn't want to hear any bad news. My mom had to have a complete hystorectomy (not sure how to spell it) at a fairly young age because of having cancer so there was a good chance that I could get it since my mom did. Since my diabetes flaired up last year I have been seeing my doctor regularly and she insisted that I have one. I respect my doctor and did as she requested. I had been so nervous afterwards as I was waiting for the results. I talked to my husband about being nervous and he told me he was sure everything was going to be fine. I got the call from the doctors office last Thursday while I was standing with a truck driver who was about to unload a delivery. My heart sank as I answered the phone and the voice on the other line said..."This is Angie from the doctors office with your pap results." I immediately thought to myself how am I going to take this news when I have a complete stranger standing here with me? She then continued and said "everything looks normal." What a relief!!! I had to wait 30 minutes for the truck driver to unload the truck before I got the chance to call my husband and tell him the good news. Once on the phone with him he said to me, "I knew everything was going to be fine because I prayed and asked God to take care of you." That very sentence means so much to me. My husband has come along way in his faith since I met him. And although from time to time we talk in depth about God just to hear the words of prayer for me come from my husbands mouth means a better gift to me than a 25 carat ring along with a fur coat and a new Mercedez Benz. I know my husband prays for me and often we pray together. But to hear him tell me he prayed for me in this delicate situation without me even knowing means the world to me. And aside from that a long time ago I remember praying to God one night as I lay in bed wondering about the length of time since I had an exam. I remember telling the Lord that at any time He would decide to choose me to be a person who lived on this earth with cancer I would take it on doing His work rather than saying "Why me?" I know while cancer is not a pleasant condition I know there is alot of work that can be done for the Lord being a person with cancer. I have no fear of anything knowing God is in control.
AJ's basketball game and Hylari's bowling was cancelled on Saturday due to the weather. Mike's ACT test was still on but he did not go because he was "not feeling good." I have decided to wash my hands of Mike's college and let his mom and dad take care of it. Not feeling good and actually having a fever and all that goes with it is one thing. But flat out not going and using "not feeling good" as an excuse is another. The sad thing is his parents buy everything he says. So the boys lack of direction is a direct result of them not holding him accountable nor being strict enough to nudge him on his way to adulthood. Mike is a smart kid he just doesn't use it. My husband was talking yesterday about trying to see if he could talk Mike into going into the military. While I think that would be in Mike's best interest he is currently in a military class in school and he has an F in the class!!!! I don't see him succeeding in anything until someone makes him grow up .........which he would do real quick in the military. Uuuuuuuuugh! It is all very frustrating!
This afternoon I have to go to my first mammogram exam. I am nervous about my appointment. I told the receptionist on the phone that I was nervous and she told me she had just had her first exam within the last year. She told me that while it doesn't "hurt" that it is very uncomfortable. She said she had heard horror stories prior going to hers and it wasn't as bad as she had anticipated it being. It really stinks getting old!
Have a great day!