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Chris: Walk awhile upon my journeyAnd steal a place in my heart.With your eyes,Upon these words,You, kindred spirit,Can touch my soul. Chris Roe“ In Search of Silence” by Chris Roe. A personal journey in search of spiritual peace.A collection of 45 poems available from www.silentflightpublications.co.uk A selection of the poems from “ In Search of Silence”Eternal JourneyAs the crimson flame of lifeBreaks slowlyAbove the horizon,The white frosted meadows,With trees and hedger
Denise: Miss ya, Sami! Just wanted you to know I changed my blog to Blogspot. Click on my name!
Dominique: Wanted to say hello!
marik: hallooo Sami...can't you blog at work anymore? I miss your blogs!
Lori: I'm just passing through to say hi.
marik: Sami, where arst thou? he he. Hope you & family are well!
Denise: Looking for an update!
Charlotte: Hi. Would you like to exchange links? Thanks!
Storm: Hi Sami .. good to be back from Africa and love your site
lattesandlipstick: Hey Sami!! I started a new blog just for us girls!! Come check it out next time you're around! Where are you, anyway???
Denise: Looking for an update. :)
Gina: Hey Sami! Miss reading your posts- hope you're okay!!
Sally Ferguson: Happy Easter!
Samantha: Hey Sami! LTNS, I used to read your journal all the time, then I went MIA for about 2 years. Glad to be back. I've been reading about Mike. I hope all works out for the best!
Denise: That is cute about the ballroom dancing!
Jaxon's momma: Sami,Thank you for keeping everyone updated on Jaxon. I had no idea this was even here. I would love to get to talk to you sometime!! God bless~Amber, Jaxon's mommawww.caringbridge.org/visit/jaxonburns
Denise: Just checking up on you. Good to see you blogging!Been sick past few days..... hit our house hard.
Barbara: Blog hopping and thought I'd say hi
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Bits & Pieces: oh really? but it just works fine on my end...btw, tnx for the visit, just let me know if u add me already so I can add yours to mine also
KR: blog hopping...happy tuesday
Bits & Pieces: hello...care to exchange link? if so let me know so I can add your link to my blog...tnx
Denise: Nice to see you updated :)
momrocks2: Very nice blog!
Denise: Just lookin' for an update
Kris: Hi Sami! Happy Belated Valentine's Day!
Denise: Totally hear you with trying to get a nap and with family causing extra work. ;)I gave my dh a baloon and a bag of of chocolates. Figured way to his heart is through his stomach. ;)
Sally Ferguson: Happy Valentine's Day!
Heart: happy valentines day
Lisa: Hello, visiting here and have a nice night with you..
Kris: Hi Sami! I hope all is well with you and yours, I'll be back to catch up on you! But I got something for you at my place, stop through when you get a sec!
mandi791: Hello again! Yikes, that must have been crazy, some people just don't care about other peoples stuff. And you are right, honesty is the best policy!
mandi791: Hey! Really cute place! Definately original. maybe we can exchnge! LMK! Have a great weekend:)
BUTTERFLY: HELLO
Melissa: pssst....add me to your friends list since I have to keep running over my tag board to come back here!! ~M~
Utah Mommy: Blog hopping here found your site from someone's tagboard and i thought of paying you a visit here. Hope all is well with you. Have a blessed Sunday!
Razor Family Farms: Hi Sami! LOVE your blog! Your honesty about and love for your family is wonderful to read. What a delightful joural! Thank you for visiting the "farm" and we hope to see you again soon!
The Stepford Wife: Just blog hopping through. :)
Tina: Thanks for stopping by. I love all the pictures you have taken!
Kris: Hi Sami, stopping in to wish you a happy new year!
Laura: Stopping by to wish you a Happy New Year. Sorry to hear about the cat, I know how hard it is to lose a pet you have had for a long time. You have a beautiful family, may you all be blessed!
Gina: Happy New Year Sami!! Have fun stripping (wallpaper that is! hehe!)!! I feel your pain- been there, done that in my old house many times. Sometimes you really wonder WHAT were people thinking?!?!I posted a link to our vacation pics, so hop over and have a look-see! :-)
MariK: Hi Sami, wishing you a bright and blessed day!
Garf: hello...care to exchange link?
Sunshine: Hi Sami, Thanks for stopping by and the nice comment! We're getting ice here too! Tis the season I guess! Blessings to you!
Missie: Just returning the visit! Thanks for stopping by. We will be heading to the airport shortly to pick them up. Thanks for your good wishes. Have a blessed day!!
Gina: I'm baaa-aaack!
marybeth: hi! GLAD I GOT A CHANCE TO STOP BY AND SEE YOUR LOVELY SITE. NICE MEETING YOU, MAY GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY.HUGS
MariK: Have a Happy Happy Week!!
Garf: care to exchange link?
Melissa: Hey...sorry it took me so long. I updated. I added you too...I forgot to ask you first. I hope it's okay. Have a wonderful Tuesday. ~M~

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Wednesday, March 12th 2008

10:58 PM

God is hearing our prayers!

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  • Pray for: Jaxon, Tyler, George, Mike and Hudson

I am not going to get overly excited because we have not heard an official word but I think Mike may have went back home.  I just visited his girlfriend's Myspace page and her headline reads that she is bored, misses him and hates his parents...followed by a profanity.  She can hate us all she wants .... no love loss there!! I will have my husband call in the morning to find out if he is back home or not.

We had a pleseant evening tonight.  The boys were over- we did some homework with them and went out to eat before taking them home. AJ has a big Math test tomorrow that we studied for and I made a deal with him if he gets a B or higher that I would buy him a pair of Hollister flip flops.  I want to share a cute writing I found in Brock's backpack.  This writing is Brock through and through:

Ballroom Dancing

My opinion is that ballroom dancing is not for me.  Because we have to dance and sometimes I get confused on all the moves in the second part of dancing. When we have to use partners we have to do three moves very fast, then I mess up when everyone else is doing it right. Why do we have to do ballroom dancing?

Another part I don't like is when we have to hold hands with our partners.  But really I do not know where my partners hands have been.  And one more thing I don't like is how my partner acts. First she messes me up by doing something else while I'm doing it right.  Then she says like stop messing up.  And that is all the reason's why I don't like ballroom dancing.

Is that not the cutest?  I am going to save this and share it with him when he is older for a laugh.

Hylari passed a big Social Studies test yesterday so I got her a "Way to Go" balloon and a $5 Walmart card so that she could buy some music for her MP3 player.

I am still having problems sleeping.  I worked out about an hour ago hoping that would help me.  Then now finding this possible good news about Mike I am certain I will sleep better tonight.

Tomorrow night we have  a Parent's Math  workshop at Hylari's school followed by a Family Fun Night.  The PTSA is putting on the Family Fun Night so I will be working the event and then signed my hubby and I up for clean up duty.

The kids were supposed to go to an Internet Safety Class tonight but we received a phone call that they had to reschedule it to next week.  I am kind of glad it wasn't tonight since AJ had to study for his Math test.

Jaxon is doing soooooooooooo good!  Please keep the prayers coming!  His mom posted new pictures of him on the website and he looks absolutely beautiful!!!  PTL!!!  He has all the tubes out except for his feeding tube.  I can't wait to be able to post that he is up and running around. 

I can't think of much else going on.  Work has been kind of busy lately so I have not got around to visiting my friends.  I am certainly thinking about you all. 

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Wednesday, March 12th 2008

12:24 PM

Need to get some stuff off of my mind

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  • Pray for: Jaxon, Tyler, George, Mike and Hudson

Are we already going through enough?  I posted earlier the new findings with Mike.  Of course that adds fuel to the fire we are already feeling.  But collectively the three of us have decided to let Mike be.  He has made his choices and now he must live with them.  He is being completely disrespectful and we all are done dealing with him until he can wake up and smell the coffee.

As I have posted before my husband has been married twice before me.  So needless to say he came with alot of baggage.  His first wife (Mike's mom) has not been that hard to deal with.  She has had her problems but for the most part we do not have alot of issues with her.  My husbands second wife.....lets just keep it at I do not cuss but if I did I would have plenty of names to call her.  She has made a career of marrying men and producing children in order to get child support.  She is currently on her 5th marriage and 6th child.  She cheated on my husband when she was married to him and is currently married to that guy.  The two of them are absolutely horrible to my husband which I don't get.......they were the ones that cheated!!  Just the calibur of people, I guess.  She is also a terrible mother.  She doesn't care about her kids. She just wants those child support checks to keep coming.  In fact when she told my husband about wanting a divorce she told him she never loved him but needed to have more children.  Isn't that nice?

So, tonight I was in the kitchen making dinner when my husband came in to get the phone.  He told me he was going to call the younger boys mom to make sure she got the note he gave to AJ the other day and to let her know we would be bringing the boys home later tomorrow night.  My husband has always been super duper commincative with her.  He lets her know everything that is going on with the boys (because she doesn't bother to find out and they live in her house!) etc.  Over the past 2 months he has found it very difficult to get in touch with her.  Her husband either quit or got fired from his job and is not working.  This has resulted in her working full time at night.  So of course we understand she has to sleep during the day and do not call until early evening.  Most of the time no one answers the phone at their house.  The boys tell us that their mom and her husband do not like to answer the phone so they don't do it or they just turn the ringer off.  So we have had to result in giving a note to the boys and hope their mother gets them.  My husband was calling to make sure she got the note from Sunday because it had dates on them through July of the boys schedule.  I hear my husband say to her as she answers the phone "Hey! What's going on?" (he says that to anyone he calls) he then says "You are the hardest person to get a hold of".  He said it all in a nice upbeat joking voice.  My husband is quiet for a while and then I hear him ask her is she is in a bad mood.  He is quiet again and he says "I am not trying to ruin your evening"...."I am not wigging out..." He can hardly get a word in because she is going off on him.  We are not sure what was up her rear but she was completely nasty to him and all he was doing was try to place a call to make sure she got the note with the dates on it.  I guess we shouldn't be informative to her because it ticks her off.  And I know for a fact that my husband was not rude to her.  I listened to his whole call.  I also know because my husband has this theory if he is nice to her she won't take him back to court for more child support.  There are PLENTY of times he really needed to say things for the sake of his kids and he has not for that matter.  I told him being nice to her is not going to keep her from doing it if that is what she sets her mind to do.  The only thing he said during the call that could have ticked her off which was towards the end is when he accidentally called her by my name and not hers.  Ooooo! Not good. 

So he gets off the phone and is mad.  He then tells me he wants to get custody of the boys because they shouldn't have to suffer with such a bad mother. I have always told him I am behind him 100% if he wants to get custody of the boys but I wouldn't work if we did that.  For one, I have high blood pressure and diabetes.  Health wise I cannot take on the kids and work full time and do all I do around our house.  Secondly the boys have not been properly parented in their home and really need the one on one to get them where they need to be as far as manners, hygene, school work, family relations, etc. goes.  Nor would I let Hylari take a back seat to what she is used to.  My husband is the type of person who has to have $500 in his pocket at all times or he freaks out.  He is the finanical planner for our household and does a terrific job at it.  However, if I stayed home he wouldn't be able to have $500 in his pocket and he plain and simply is not going to do that.  He then blamed it on me saying he will just have to let his kids' lives go down the drain then.  Sorry but that is not my fault.  I have offered to be the mother these children deserve and am willing to sacrafice whatever it takes to give them all, Hylari included, what they need but I will not work doing it.  I let him cool down for a while and then told him he was being unfair blaming me.  He told me he was in a rock and hard place.  I didn't say anything but he is only in a rock and hard place because he is not willing to find a way to make it work. 

Once I got Hylari in bed I had held it all in for long enough and let it all out.  I needed a good cry.  I have always lived my life on a narrow path.  Either it is black or it is white.  It is either wrong or it is right.  It is either empty or full.  I am extremely responsible and independent.  I have never had so much drama in my life.........even as a teenaged girl.  My husband looks at everything as "unfortunate events" in his life.  Where I look at my own as choices and what results am I going to get.  That is why I think everything through carefully and thoroughly. 

I really do not think I can take much more.  Which makes me kind of laugh and reminds me of a situation - all though it started out bad it all turned out well.  Several years ago when my sister was pregnant with my oldest niece she started spotting.  I quickly left work and went to the hospital where she was.  We spent the whole day at the hospital and when we took her home they told us that they were not sure if she miscarried or not because she was newly pregnant.  They told her she needed to remain stress free and to relax and to go back to the doctor in a few days.  We all went to my parents house for dinner that night.  While we were eating dinner my mother has a heart attack and we have to rush her to the hospital.  So much for keeping my sister stress free.  We spent the night at the hospital and I ended up going back to my parents house to take care of my mom's pets (she is a pet lover and I know she would have stressed if her pets weren't taken care of) and to get Hylari to bed.  As I was driving home I talked to God and told Him I couldn't take much more.  Well God showed me I was stronger than I thought.  I was at my parents house for about 30 minutes when the hospital called and told me that my dad had passed out.  They were taking tests of him and everything was looking good and they thought it was just from all the stress.  I told God....Ok...you prooved to me I could take more but enough is enough! 

So who knows what tomorrow will bring....

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